Even though the days are beautiful now, I feel the slow and steady approach of winter, in the shorter hours, the crisp mornings, the tinge of red and yellow in the leaves. It is a time of year I love and that makes me feel sad at the same time.
I am struggling with appetite issues. I am hungrier. I can't wait until I get home in the evening to eat, and I end up getting fast food on the way. Today I brought a bigger lunch, hoping it will help. Yesterday I spent more than $10 on food I shouldn't have had.
And I am feeling more depressed. Little things get to me. I feel alone and unloved, even when I know it's not true. Sometimes I have to work really hard to bolster my self-esteem.
Anyhoo, I did a load of laundry last night, but still have tons to do. I will just have to work at it this week. Not only do I have the regular week's worth, which I didn't do on the weekend, but I have the clothes from Goodwill to wash, too. I never feel like it is really mine until I wash it.
And for a bit of humor -- I looked over the intimidating job description last night, trying to figure out what to put in my cover letter, when I realized it was the description for a COMPLETELY DIFFERENT JOB! What a relief. A similar title, but a totally different kind of work. Now I'm stressing about why the job I'm interested in hasn't been posted yet -- I don't think I could have missed it! I do have to remember that big universities move very slowly, with all their cumbersome bureaucracy.
Winter is Coming
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