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Bad Times

October 23rd, 2017 at 02:26 pm

I had a bad night last night -- pain, sleeplessness, restlessness. I still don't feel very good. My worry is that I won't be up to par for watching the boys after school, but it is something I must do. C continues to fail, and DIL is taxed more and more. C is no longer acting like herself, her confusion is taking over and she is even "combative." I am not sure what DIL means by that; I hope she means argumentative.

She still has her sister and her friend staying with her. There doesn't seem to be any point in my visits, because she doesn't seem to know me. So I will be on call for her caretakers (bringing supplies and food) and will be on call for child care. I may stay with her later when the sister and friend have to go home.

When C was in the hospital, they told her she probably had 4 to 6 weeks left. It has been 6 weeks. She is surely near the end, and how I wish it could be more peaceful, for everyone's sake.

Anyway, I will try to get a nap today. I'm not going to try to go to the gym or anything.

16 Responses to “Bad Times”

  1. starfishy Says:

    so sorry to hear all of this...such a painful time in so many ways. take care of yourself and thinking of you.

  2. rob62521 Says:

    So sorry to learn that you didn't rest and don't feel well and that C isn't having a peaceful time of it. Prayers for all you.

  3. Butterscotch Says:

    Do you have a firm mattress? I noticed that as I get older I cannot handle firm mattresses. They make my hips and knees ache so badly! I have no problems on a nice soft bed so I now have a sleep number bed. If I visit someone or stay at a hotel with a firm mattress I sleep on a bunch of pillows and that make a big difference. I swear one night on a firm mattress and I’m crippled for days!

  4. stephanie Says:

    My thoughts and prayers for comfort go out to C, you and family.

  5. snafu Says:

    This is such a difficult time and we sincerely hop prayers help so that you know we all care. I wonder if there has been an arrangement for Hospice care to help all cope. You're doing an awesome job, much more than I could manage emotionally. I'm in awe.

  6. LivingAlmostLarge Says:

    I am so sorry for all that your family is struggling through right now. My thoughts and prayers go out to you all.

  7. Laura S. Says:

    You are such an amazing person doing all you do to help the family. I am so sorry you have your own physical pain to deal with along with all that is going on with C. I hope the nap helps you today.

  8. michelle Says:

    you and yours are in my thoughts and prayers, CB

  9. creditcardfree Says:

    My prayers are with you, C, and your family during this transition. It's so emotional and taxing for everyone. Hang in there!

  10. jokeabee Says:

    I've been keeping you and C and your family in my thoughts every day.

  11. Thrifty Ray Says:

    CB- My thoughts are with you friend. Im so sorry for all you, C and the family is going through during this difficult time. {{hugs}}

  12. Amber Says:

    Aw CB I'm definitely keeping you all in prayer

  13. LuckyRobin Says:

    Sounds rough. I will pray for you to have strength and health during this time.

  14. CB in the City Says:

    Thank you, everyone. We are just doing what we have to do day by day.

    Butterscotch, I do have a firm mattress, but I am very uncomfortable sleeping on a soft mattress -- even a pillow top over a firm mattress makes me feel like I'm in quicksand, and it's so hard to roll over.

  15. PatientSaver Says:

    please take care of yourself. You need your sleep.

  16. Dido Says:

    Thoughts and prayers. Such a hard time. Hugs.

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